Iím writing you this letter because I need to let you know how I feel. I hope that you actually read it, and donít just toss it in the trash, because you wonít let me talk to you, you avoid me as much as you can. Itís as if you canít bear to be around me. So I guess this is the only way we can communicate.
I understand that you need to take some time for yourself after everything that youíve been through, but I donít want you to push me away. Please donít do that. Weíve been through too much to give up on our relationship, and I want you to know that no matter what, Iíll be here for you. You can run away from all this, but you canít hide yourself from me, I know you too well. I know you inside out, as you know me.
Walk away if you want to, take a break, itís OK if thatís what you need to do. But Iíll always be waiting for you. I love you, Nick. Never forget that. Turn around and Iíll be there, watching your back, making sure youíre OK. And when youíre ready to live again, Iíll be here.
Take some time to think about it, please. I know that youíre searching for something, some deeper meaning to life, but this is it, baby. This is what life is, itís about loving and being loved, no one can ask for more than that. I love you so much that it burns me like fire, but I embrace that gladly, because itís better than feeling nothing, feeling empty.
I donít want to make you remember what happened, so I wonít dwell on that part. I just want you to know that I never once gave up looking for you. I felt it in my heart, in my soul that we would find you alive, and we did. We got you. We brought you back.
I just want to hold you and make everything OK, but I know thatís not going to happen. I know I canít fix this for you, and that breaks me, but the only thing I can do is step back and let you work this out for yourself. And you will get there, I know that. Youíre such a strong, amazing person, Nick, and I wonít let you forget that.
I wonít let you forget me either. It took me too long to get you talked into dating me, Iím not letting you go, not now, not ever. I love you, Nick. I love you.
Turn around and Iíll be two steps behind you. Iím here for you, always. As soon as youíre ready.
All my love